Sometimes….

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Something amazing happened to me two days ago. The person who tore my world apart met up with me and we sat down and talked. For hours we sat there enjoying each others company. We started reminiscing in our past and long story short, we kissed. Not the normal kiss of friends or like a test. It was like a FUCKYES kiss. A one in a million. My “best friends” don’t even know because the only person I told hates me for letting go and following my heart.

Honestly, I had to write this down on something more permanent than paper. I am excited about him being back into my life. One way or another I will do what makes me happy. Right now it’s him. Tomorrow, it will be him. Until I get dispair from this situation, I will keep living in the moment when our lips touched. When you texted me saying “Im here for you” and how I asked you for a favor and though you have your own shit to deal with you put it all down to make me happy. I feel like we never seperated and that we are better now. You are here for me.

You told me I am the only person that has ever given you confidence. I gave you a reason to live. I gave you hope and love.

I never stopped loving you. I never hated you. I just wish I just could explain how much you mean to me. The fact we are on speaking terms is making my world keeps spinning and helps me keep taking breaths. I love you, Tenderloin. I always will.

I’m always here for you.

So you’re the one I’ve waited on
The one I’ve been dreaming of
Now that I know, it’s hard to let go
I don’t want to lose your love
But what can I do, I can’t make you stay here
But if you should choose to go your own way
Where ever you’re going, whenever you turn
Remember this moment, remember these words
I will, I will give up my life for you if you want it
Give you my heart, you already own it
I’ll do anything, I’ll go anywhere, it’s true
I will, I will, I will…
I look in your eyes and I see our life
So full of happiness
Do you see the same? Or just someone you’ll blame
For things that you might’ve missed
I don’t want to weigh you down like an anchor
If that’s how you see me now, I would rather
Let you go free, just sail away
If that’s what you need, if that’s what it takes
If ever your day is done
Still you feel you need someone to hold you… I will
If you ever need
To talk to somebody who really knows you…. Yes I will
Give up my life for you if you want it
Give you my heart, you already own it
I’ll do anything, I’ll go anywhere, it’s true
I will, I will, I will…
I will…love you